To love a dog is truly the meaning of unconditional love. They grasp on to a piece of your heart, and never let go. Many people walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints. You love them so dearly and profoundly, that when they become lost, a deep dark hole centres in your heart.
To some people dogs are just pets; but they’re so much more than that. They are a valuable member of your family who’ve stuck by you through thick and thin. The loyalty they have for you has such a deep profound meaning, these beautiful creatures would go to hell and back for you, no matter the outcome for themselves.
Truly, whoever said diamonds are a girls best friend, never owned a dog. My family’s little black cockapoo, Annie, was loved by us all so greatly, for 12 years she made our lives that much better, she loved us unconditionally and stuck by us through every obstacle.
We cherish every moment we shared with her; when she would bark at early hours in the morning for her food, when she greeted us at the door with so much welcome and love, when she would always drop her ball in the laundry basket and basically chock herself trying to get it back, or when she got her ball stuck under the couch and would bark at it until someone got it for her, when she would attack the rabbits cage whenever she had a chance, or go for walk a bouts around the neighbourhood by herself, to list a few, these memories definitely puts a smile on my face.
It has only been four days, so her death is still really fresh. Something that I’m trying my hardest to accept and get used to. But it’s hard to walk through the door and not see her, to see my other dog Bentley alone without his buddy, and the quietness that has become deafening. Dealing with this process is hard… very hard.
Some people bury their emotions deep down, and pretend that their little doggies life never happened. But you can’t just erase twelve years from your existence, you need to face the long hard truth, and deal with it in the best way possible.
Cry for your devastating loss, and smile at the happy memories you have created with them. It’s okay to laugh at this horrible time in your life, don’t feel guilty about doing fun things, or letting yourself feel joy. You will not be ruining their memory by doing this, but actually the total opposite. Living your life in the best way possible is the ultimate way to honour your dogs memory.
To help you move on maybe create a little memorial for your lost one, write down your feelings in a journal or a blog, keep yourself busy with work, school, cleaning, or possibly working out, maybe get a puppy, this will definitely ease your pain by having another four-legged creature to love and take care of. Over time the pain will ease down, the crying will slowly stop, but their memory will never fade.
To my little angel~
I am so very thankful for those paw prints on my floor, the slobbery kisses on my face and the loveable hugs, because those days are so profoundly missed.
When I close my eyes I see you, and when I open my eyes I miss you.
The memories that we have of you are so happy, vibrant, sweet and maybe at times a wee bit mischievous, but all the same makes me cherish the valuable time we had with you.
You taught me so much more than I could have expected and loved me so much more than I hoped for.
When I feel you in my heart, I’ll just look up, and will know you’ll be right there.
This is not goodbye… It’s still “I love you… Forever.”
Rest in paradise my beautiful Annie.
2003 – 2015 ❤